♫ Sunday, October 07, 2007
I am so hurt... I am single...
I tried...i tried my best... my tears flow like a fountain today and as usual, i wasted lots of tissue... in the end, i failed badly
Others might think that im very "easy" will get over a r.s but they are so wrong. i am those type of person that is hard to get over. i appeared to be a happy go lucky as usual. but at night, when im alone, my real character appears. the situation goes like this...
few days after i broke up with him, i really not used of him not being there anymore and i really cant take it. ask him to get back together but too late. he was a totally different person.
Tonight i meeting him 9pm at the lower seletar there. If he comes, then he is willing to give our r.s a chance. i reached there at 8.30pm. waited till 9.05pm and called him. he was at boat.C and he told me he isnt coming.. when i heard that, do u know how hurt am i...he said he alr gave me an ans.
at first, he keep saying give him time to think la..blah blah...but wasnt that just an excuse. i rather u tell me straight that u dont want, dont give me hope of asking me to wait.
i tried toking him to get back together...in the end, all i get was "i dont want", "i want to be single", "i want to be selfish and think for myself", "just treat it as i have a new target and u carry on"
can u believe those is wad he said...those were said by someone who loves me very much...only a week and this is what i get...
in the end, i really gave up... u guys never knew wad i said to get him back....i tried my BEST but in the end, i gave up..i really did..
iin the last part of our conversation, i told him i really tried and he doesnt need to think of the good things and bad things abt being single and attached coz he need not need to anymore. i just wish him all the best and if he is happy being single, doing the things he wanted and no more needed to think for me, then let him go...
it is difficult to know that a 3 year r.s just ended up this way...i really dont feel like crying but tears just flow out...
while bathing, i think of all the things we used to do together...all the memories we shared...
it sux...it really sux...........
Will you come? 11:49 PM
